Honesty isn't always Pretty

I shared this with one of my closest friends months ago:

I wish that I could tell you that I've taken this pain and turned it around only for the good but if I'm being honest I've done some really stupid things. It's strange how you will do anything to stop the pain for just a moment. The truth that I've come to realize is that it doesn't matter what I've been through or what I am going through, it doesn't provide me with an excuse to do whatever I please to stop the hurt. It's kind of crazy how some people will give me a pass because of it, but as a Christian, I know that my circumstances do not provide me with a pass for sin. There is no pass for that! You know I've been mad, sad, depressed, confused, I could go on and on, but I am not so blinded by this that I can't see what God has done for me. I may be beaten, but I am not destroyed. I can't see the master piece, but I know it's being painted. I have had days where I have refused to get on my knees and I have had days where I can't get up off of them. God' love is powerful and amazing. Most days I can't figure out where I fit in with this world, but the important thing is that I know exactly where I fit in with God. I LOVE GOD and I know HE LOVES ME and that's all I really need to know right now.

Honesty isn't always pretty...